There is a time when you start a new chapter of your life that you can feel yourself changing. Whether it’s positive or negative is completely your choice. You write your own life story. We all come across bumps, forks, and dead ends in the road and it is your choice on which direction you will go next.For me, my new chapter began with instant unconditional love. Without even knowing it, two little angels entered my life and reminded me of the importance of relationships. When a part of your life ends, you tend to step away from anything derived from feeling. You will strive to surround yourself with something constant: your career, car, money or even drugs. Relationships and feelings will be pushed to the side for fear of another loss. In reality, nothing is a constant. One day your career will be over, your car could break down, and a daily focus on money or drugs could lead to the end of a novel I’d rather not read.
The recipe of a life altering relationship calls for trust, work, time and the strength to be yourself. All of which I was not ready for until you.
The lack of trust in someone else stems from both the dishonesty of past relationships and insecurities of your imperfections. I would think it’s impossible to even begin to trust someone when the sting of deception still feels very real. I would think it’s impossible to even begin to find strength in yourself when you feel you’re drowning in imperfections the moment you look in the mirror. Then you came along and simply told me I think too much.
From the start, you have communicated what you wanted. No games, no deception, no uncertainty. It has inspired me to be completely honest with my insecurities. I can not find the words to describe the feeling of being real and hearing someone say they adore it all. You make me feel like a work of art. You celebrate my imperfections and emphasize that I am rare because of them.
No time is the perfect excuse for a workaholic avoiding a relationship. I can see now that this excuse can potentially make you miss out on a connection that can positively change you. Because there you were, encouraging me to take my time and make decisions based on my happiness. You have reminded me of the simple truth that the way you spend your time is a choice. Therefore, time is a precious gift that ought to be given to those that assist you in becoming the person you strive to be. Although, a relationship can not survive on a one way street for you must savor their time as much as they cherish yours.
I’m beginning to feel myself changing in this new chapter of my life. Making the decision to strengthen my relationships is completely my choice. Nurturing the new relationships and strengthening the old are the key ingredients in the direction I am choosing to go. 
